Dirty Without Stains

2007-02-09T04:11:00.000-08:00

my tears gushed out like the water rushing though the dam when i called Ma.
I'm just so overjoyed that i cried. haha. ask me if you wanna know why.
for u who know, just hush.

2007-02-08T05:52:00.000-08:00

And my spirit cries, "There's something more! Something more!"

2007-01-30T06:51:00.000-08:00

This heart so fragile so afraid

Yet You hold it with unfailing love

Your gentle eyes fall upon this lil heart

as Your child stands before Your throne

You thought and You touched

that given heart

Tears overwhelmed the lil child

Just before she snatched it back

You gave her a hug

and healed her heart

Those strong hands of Yours

that cast out spirits

touched my heart

as I fall in awe into Your everlasting arms

2007-01-30T06:30:00.000-08:00

Psalm 27:4

Psalm 42:1

I feel this tug within me, makes me feel as if there's a thousand ant crawling over my body. call it restless or what. I prayed and i prayed. How I yearn for the void to be filled. Yet I dun want it to be filled.

Humans get too complacent with their current situations in which they find comfort. When everything seems to be okay, we actually forget about the Author. Now I hope to stay like this forever but I can't. That means there will never be progress. Oh God, take me deeper...

2007-01-27T06:01:00.000-08:00

I was so blessed by Dr Bernard's service. It was unlike HIS usual message but it did made me realise my self value and i really felt a worth. IF you knew what happened to me before cell group, you would understand the full story.

There's always something amazing about God. He never ceases to bring joy into my life and He'll heal the broken heart. I really deserve to be the happiest person around more than anyone else simply because I am the Child of God. HEes=)

2007-01-26T17:59:00.001-08:00

I've been dreaming recently. They are all related to my personal thoughts. They turned out to be all fear especially the one in which my mom died. That was the most "memorable" one in a sense cuz i cried. i woke up to find myself crying, gasping hard. However, there was no tears. Soemtimes i feel that the person in me in school is just a facade. When i retire home and reflect, that day whatever i did, i wasn't really happy at all. As compared to what i did with my cg, nope, i wasn't happy.

Many times, we've taken the simplest things in life for granted. Often you take it just as it is, not appreciating the simplicity of it. Going through such tribulations, i taught me to cherish what i have even more.

And yes, I have dropped A maths. It feels like a burden off my shoulders. People literally screame dinto my ears with horrified expressions, least expecting me to drop a maths. face the world dudes! why continue struggling with something which u noe u'll never be able to do well in and cause yourself to die in the end? i had ratehr 7 subjects which i can all score distinctions for it. i's life and how you view it. u dun have to follow the conventional way of doing things. who knows, i may take up literature which i have totally no foundation in if i get to go JC. but still.. NGEE ANN! MASS COMM! i still want my 10 pointers. they will ensure my my bright future. =)